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Till now still cannot commit to setup my own website, I hope u don’t mind if I use this space to post a simple short story but then my suggestion here, beside all photographs displayed, may be a simple, brief & short IT articles would make it better & meaningful.
A
year ago while I was tidying up my
things in a drawer, I just found a
little delivery card with a picture of ice-cream on it, just opened it and read
the short message, smiling to myself, my
daughter came in .
“
What that Mi? Aaaha ice –cream,” she shouted happily.
“
My friend gave it to me”, give to her that tiny card.
“Why
he gave u this ice-cream Mi?”
“
I don’t know, may be he likes me, but its come with a cake”
“
Do you like him too? “ she asked.
“Yes,
I think I do”. My little Siti smiling at
me.
“who
ate that cake then?”
“
of course I ate it, shared with my roomates”
“
Why don’t u give the cake to me?” I have no answer.
.
She
opened & closed the little thing a few times whenever my husband came into
the room.
“What’s
up?” he asked. I showed the things to
him. He opened and read it with smile,
“U
don’t show it to me before”
“
U never asked, After all I didn’t hide it, I just put and keep it here &
nobody notice that”. I replied, defensive.
“Frankly
speaking, tell me your feeling now!” I insisted.
“
I can feel a wave in my stomach”, he said.
“Oo
really?,…. then u should appreciate me more”. I laughed to him.
For
11 years I kept that silly tiny card in my drawer and for so many years I have been trying so hard to forget him. But
then, how can I forget all the memories and that smile? I must keep pretending
to hide my feeling to make other people happy. Most of my girlfriends seems not
blessed us yesterday and I don’t want to
be a selfish person. Till now none of them knew about the card & cake
delivery. So how can I say ‘yes’ to nobody?
Our
life goes on and although after 11 years I ‘ve never seen him anymore. I have
been crying along the day that I have to make the decision either I agree to
marry my husband or not. After all when this games is over, I admit that he
won. I just pray for Allah help, hope Allah will show me the right way to
follow until my death. Also hope Allah can forgive all my sins to Him and other
peoples. Somebody must know that deep in my heart there always be a little
place for him but must be reserved forever.
The End
